How does it feel? Good or bad?

 

I have started to notice things about my parents I didn't see before. My dad does everything on his own. Rarely calls any of us for anything. The other day he told me to check the pressure in the tyre. He had this strange device which does that. And I told him its pretty simple. 

He was like yes i know beta but mjhsa neecha nhin batha jata. That hit me really hard. This person who raised me and who I have seen doing everything but exhibit any signs of weakness. Is getting old.

The joints of my mother hurt now if she does something extra.

Sometimes she looks at herself and notices a wrinkle here or there after some random aunty tells her your skin looks worn out. She asks me if its that bad. And I always assure her it doesn't matter. Your face is allowed to show some struggles it has been through.

I want to tell her all your kids have bones because we took yours bit by bit but I tell her the pain will go away, don't worry. 

She spends a lot of time talking about us. Her kids. I notice all she does is talk about her kids and what they like and what they want. 

Sometimes she will get all excited when making something on our request and asking us later again and again if we liked it. She will hear in my voice that its breaking when I don't put on a sweater. 

These two human beings literally just raised us. And made sure we were happy. 

I want to tell her all your kids have bones because we took yours bit by bit but I tell her the pain will go away, don't worry. 

She spends a lot of time talking about us. Her kids. I notice all she does is talk about her kids and what they like and what they want.

I don't know what chemical reaction makes them be so selfless when it comes to kids. But in no way can I comprehend that I can give them even a little bit of love back. 

Because I was everything but selfless when it  le to loving them. I wanted to come to other cities  and study. 

Little did I know it was gonna be 5 6 years less of seeing them everyday and it would only be more distance after that. I wish now someone had forced me to stay close to them because no matter what happens. Those years aren't coming back. 

 

I never stopped to think how they stuck around with me while I was growing up & studying or career or whatever glorious things are out there is never going to compete with what I lost just being here with my parents. They never tell you because you are achieving all these things. 

But all of them want you close. 

So whenever you have a choice. Go for it. But remember two people out there chose you beyond everything.